Baba says, “This is an old world and you have disinterest in it.“

The easy meaning of having a correct attitude of disinterest is: Even while coming into connection with souls, while using facilities, or while serving, I should remain loving to the same extent as I am detached. There should be balance between the two. However, what often happens is that sometimes the percentage of being detached increases while sometimes the percentage of being loving increases. To be balanced means that I have the consciousness of being an instrument and am humble; instead, Baba says, there is mostly the consciousness of ‘mine’: “This is my task, this is my place, I have received all these facilities because my fortune is so elevated.” If I am in-charge of a center, I think: “I have done all this work and brought this place, this service and these students to this point with so much effort. They are mine! Is there no value to the effort I have made?” I still get my sense of worth and value from what I own, what I’ve accomplished, how many people know me etc.

Sometimes, I even think: “How can one develop any self-worth in this institution!? When anything goes wrong, it’s my fault and when anything goes well, it’s Baba!” Let me realize that my self-worth doesn’t comes from what I do, it comes from who I am. I am a pure soul, a child of God Himself. This is where I get my value from. And this confluence aged life is where I have the unbelievable privilege of being a helper to God Himself and so this life is not about “look, what I can do…”- this is the old attitude that I’ve had for the last half cycle. Rather, this life is about what I will allow God to do through me. Can I be His instrument to such an extent that He can use me in whatever way He wants- big or small– to reach His other children? Will I praise Him only when the task He uses me for is big or makes me visible? or will I keep the praise going even when the task is seemingly ordinary and keeps me back stage? Am I happy only when I am on top of the cliff or am I okay playing the role of the little rock at the bottom of the hill? Only when I have an attitude of unlimited disinterest can I truly serve God.

God says, “Become completely homeless, even this body is not yours. It has been given to you in trust for Godly service.” To be a trustee doesn’t mean that I don’t use the things I have been entrusted; a trustee is not a sannyasi. Rather, a trustee is supposed to use everything but according to the master’s directions. However, if I have my own limited desires- be it for name, fame, physical comforts, etc.- then, I won’t be able to function as a trustee; I will misuse the trust placed in me by using the master’s property for my own gains. Often, I don’t even realize I am off track and say to Baba: “Baba, only You can help me in this. Don’t You agree that this should be my task? Is this not my responsibility? Shouldn’t I receive what is my right!?” It’s as if Baba requires my clarification in order to understand.

“You are an instrument“, Baba reminds me. “Whatever I receive, however I receive it, wherever You make me sit, whatever You feed me, whatever You make me do, I will do only that.” – this is my promise to God at this confluence age. To think: “But how come I get to do this little task while she gets to go on stage and she isn’t even that good!”, this isn’t being an instrument. “Disinterest in the consciousness of “mine” is unlimited disinterest.“, explains Baba. But today, He observes, new types of the consciousness of ‘mine’ are emerging even more. Whether someone is a soul who has taken knowledge or not taken knowledge, everyone agrees that the situations of the world are bad. Everyone asks: “How much longer can the world continue in this condition?” Nevertheless, the world is in fact continuing and getting worse. If I want the world to change, I have to change first. World transformation is based on self-transformation and I can only transform when I have the attitude of unlimited disinterest for the old world. If I continue to hold on to the old world- it’s physical comforts, it’s ways of celebrating limited and temporary things, it’s demand for name and fame- then, the world cannot change. Only when I let go of my grasp on it will I allow it to transform.

To remain detached when I have nothing and to claim that I have disinterest- that’s easy. But true disinterest is to remain detached when I have it all. While having everything, by using the knowledge, with feelings of world benefit and of wanting to reveal the Father, I have an attitude of unlimited disinterest. Based on the knowledge of the world cycle I have received from the Father, I have faith that this old world is going to end. So while I continue to live in the old world, seeing everything, my intellect is aware that all of this is going to end. Nothing will remain. So wisdom is to not chase after that which is fleeting.

To be one who has unlimited disinterest means to have an unlimited attitude, awareness, good feelings and pure wishes in your every thought, word and service, teaches Baba. Let every thought be surrendered to unlimited service. Let every word have selfless feelings. Let everyone experience the vibration in your every action that Karankaravanhaar is making you act. This is known as being one with unlimited disinterest. To be one with unlimited disinterest means awareness of the self should end. Instead, there should be the awareness of Baba in everything. The Father’s heart is touched by the children who remember the Father very well and who do service.