Baba says, “This constant happiness of the heart will remove all the sorrow of the whole world.”

After half a cycle of living selfishly, I come to Baba. He is the Bestower, the Ocean of Love, the Ocean of Kindness, the Ocean of Patience….the Ocean of all virtues. All He does is give, He quenches the thirst of His long lost children who had been stumbling in the darkness of Ravan’s kingdom thinking of themselves as orphans. I receive His selfless soul conscious love, His unconditional acceptance, His unwavering faith in my greatness. In being the kind of soul He is, He returns to me my dignity and honor. He breathes new life into me. I am so grateful, I cannot believe my fortune. I want nothing more than to rescue my other brothers and sisters who are still stumbling as orphans in Ravan’s world.

“They’re tired of listening to lectures. That has been going on since the copper age. They want to have an experience.“, Baba tells me. That makes sense. I too had been tired of words, it was my experience of Baba’s love that enabled me to cross over from Ravan’s world into God’s. Can I be God’s representative in the world? Can I be His instrument through whom He can liberate His other children? That depends on how much stock I have of all the things – love, patience, kindness, acceptance, etc.- that God needs to give to His children. If He will use me to give it to them, then do I have it in stock?

I want to love people, want to be patient, want to be merciful but find myself struggle to do it. I know beyond doubt that my heart is right, I want to do the right thing but at the moment, the wrong thing happens; I can’t seem to pull it off. “You can only give what you have“, explains Baba. In adopting me and making me belong to Him, I have inherited God’s nature, His virtues, His powers. I have all that He has, I am equipped to represent Him in the world. But, if I am not aware of what I have, then it is as if I don’t have it, I don’t experience it. And if I don’t experience it, then others cannot experience it through me. I cannot love others if I don’t love myself. I cannot be merciful toward others if I don’t know how to be merciful toward me. If I am hard on myself, self-critical, judging myself all the time, then that’s how I will be towards others too. This is Ravan’s strategy; if he can get God’s children to not like themselves, he has won the battle.

God says: “You have given lectures for service and are still doing that but now pause and ask yourself about yourself: What is the call of the time for myself at present?” 

What is my attitude toward myself, what is my relationship with myself, how do I feel about myself? How much time do I spend thinking about everything that’s wrong with me and what I can’t and what I don’t and what I didn’t and what I should’ve and how I compare with so-and-so? This is time I am giving Ravan, this is me opening the door and inviting him in. Do I give as much time to God as I do to Ravan? In other words, do I purposefully sit down and think about how elevated my fortune is? “Many storms will come. Whatever you have done for birth after birth will come in front of you. So, remove your intellects from all directions and make effort to remember Me while being introverted.“, teaches Baba.

Somehow religion or bhakti seems to promote the idea that the more I think of myself as a sinner, as a lowly worm, as a terrible good for nothing, the better it is; that is considered being humble and spiritual. And so they sing: “We are without virtues, we have no virtues…”. But now, I am no longer in bhakti, I have knowledge. I now know God, I know I am really, truly, practically, His child. I am no longer a ‘poor, miserable sinner’. “You have been named: Prajapita Brahma Kumars and Kumaris“, He reminds me. This is my new surname, I now belong to the most elevated Godly family, I am studying the most elevated study through which I attain the sovereignty of heaven. I am changing from a human into a most elevated deity. Wow! Sure, I was a sinner without God but with Him, I am His most elevated, beloved child with rights to His kingdom. God wants me to see myself and acknowledge myself as who I am with Him, not as I was apart from Him. Ravan, on the other hand, would like me to see myself apart from God, as an orphan without rights. He wants me to focus and dwell on what’s wrong with me. It is said: What a person thinks is what they become. The more I think about what’s wrong with me, the more I will stay that way.

Baba says, “Block the path to negative thinking and you will become an embodiment of success.” When I truly believe myself to be the child of God, I will realize how much it must hurt my Father to see me and hear me think and say bad things about myself, to see me worry all the time. Sometimes I make a tiny mistake and immediately, the words that come out are: “I’m so stupid…”. Someone else at work gets a project I worked hard for and my thought is: “Just my karma…” or “I’m such a failure…”. No, in fact, I’m not stupid, I have the mind of God! No, I’m not a bad person, I have the nature of God! “Take good thoughts into your intellect. Think about what there will be in your kingdom and make yourself worthy of that and one with a good character. Remove your intellect from everything here.“, He teaches.

Let me think about what God has told me about me, about my future. Let me dwell on what He has done for me, remember what I was and what He has made me. Let me bring in front of me all the attainments I’ve had from Him, my experiences with Him. As I go through the day, let me converse with Him, invite Him into every task, keep my intellect busy in churning the knowledge He has given me. In other words, let me become introverted such that I don’t get caught up in situations, circumstances, in people, in sanskars, in what I don’t have, in what’s not working right and how people are behaving. The more I remain introverted and in the company of God, the weaker Ravan becomes.

“Let the discus of self-realization continue to spin in your intellects. This is the basis to keep your intellect in the unlimited.“, teaches Baba. When I spin the discus and see my whole story, I realize that there is so much happiness, so much peace and joy in my story. In other words, there is so much more right in my story than there is wrong. These are just the last few scenes in the drama, then I will return home with the Father and come into the new world; the land of peace and happiness. I am becoming the master of that heaven now by becoming the master of the self. I am not alone, God is my Guide on this journey. I am bound to be victorious! When I dwell on such thoughts, when I stay in God’s company, then I fill myself with courage, strength, peace and happiness and radiate that happiness into this old world filled with sorrow. I become the Father’s instrument to attract His children toward Him, to inspire them to claim their inheritance of peace and happiness from Him too. And so, Baba says, this happiness of the heart is the greatest nourishment for the self and is the greatest service I can do to the world.