Baba says, “Each of you has to charge your battery for your own progress. You must only have remembrance of the one Father in your final moments.“

The final moments lead me to my final destination. These are my final moments of this cycle, not the final days, but my final moments. What am I remembering? What is in my awareness? This is the confluence of the old world of degraded humans and the new world of elevated deities. I therefore must transform from a degraded human into an elevated deity. For that, all my sins of not just this birth but of the whole last half cycle need to be burnt away. And so the Father says: “Manmanabhav! You must now consider yourself a soul and only remember the Father through which your sins can be cut away and you can then become Narayan. This is the highest way to change from an ordinary human into Narayan.” It is not just the highest way but the ONLY way.

If the Father ought to be the only one I have in my awareness in my final moments in this big world full of distractions, then the only way to do that is to fully surrender myself to Him. Surrendering myself does not mean that I surrender my house, my car, my wealth etc. to Him. Rather, it means that I surrender my will to Him. I don’t have my grip over anything or anyone; I yield everything to Him. If there is something or someone that keep coming up in my mind, I want to remember Baba but every time, there is someone else or something that comes up. Then, that is a sign that I am not surrendered to Baba.

It is one thing to believe in God, to know Him, and a whole different thing to surrender to Him. People spend their lives ‘offering’ this and that in the name of God but they don’t offer themselves. Surrender is a big deal. It is the giving up of my right or my hold over – maybe an attitude He has told me to get rid off or over an opportunity that He has asked me to walk away from. Sometimes, I may even walk away because God has asked me to but then my intellect is still pulled by it. Thoughts keep coming up: “That was such a great opportunity, maybe I should have tried it for a year…”, “I cannot understand why Baba would say no to such a great opportunity..” etc. Surrender means that I have surrendered my heart to Him; it means that I trust Him fully. My attitude is: “Whatever You want for me, that’s what I want for me because I know implicitly that You will only want the best. Above everything else, I want Your will to be done in my life.” When I live with this attitude, I can have nothing but absolute victory.

Because then I say: “Whatever in my life You don’t like, whatever doesn’t please You, please show it to me. I am willing to lay it down.” Then, if someone betrayed me and God asks me to forgive them, I do it with my heart- not because I have to but because I want to. Because I know beyond any doubt that God is asking me to do it not for them but for me. Unless I forgive, I will keep remembering them and what they did to me try as hard as I may not to. God helps me to let go and move forward on my journey. He gives me knowledge that teaches me that I don’t have to punish anyone, the machinery is built-in, everyone reaps according to what they sow…including me. So right now, at this moment, let me sow the right seed. But if I become stubborn and hold onto unforgiveness, hold onto anger, hold onto attachments, hold onto hurts, then those are sinful thoughts that become a barrier between me and God. I cannot remember Him, try as I may. And sinful thoughts can only lead me to commit more sinful actions and just like that, I move further and further away from God.

I might still wear my white clothes, my badge and sing the songs of praise. But surrender is about being the kind of soul I am being asked to be; it is to be a pure, elevated soul, same as the Father and I become that by following His directions with all my heart. When I trust Him fully with my life, He will teach me, guide me, lead me and enable me to be the kind of person that both He and I want me to be. Sometimes, I have certain talents and skills that draw my attention to them. I use them in the world to earn limited name, fame and wealth and I even ask God to enable me to earn these things. But I don’t have the time to use my God given talents in God’s task. If I were to simply divert how and where I use my time and talents, I will move closer to God rather than away from Him. God isn’t here to help me make it in Ravan’s world; I am God’s helper in transforming Ravan’s world into heaven.

If my attitude was: “Baba, here is my life. I surrender, no strings attached.”, then what would happen to my heart, to my character, to my conversations, to my conduct? He is in charge of everything, the Master of my life. People are afraid to surrender this way because they are afraid of what God might take from them- what if He took their money, their children! God doesn’t want what I own, He wants me! He wants His child so that He can rescue me from hell, help me regain my original glory and return me to heaven. That’s our Father! what would He do with the things of Ravan’s world that I have accumulated!? Let me recognize Him for who He truly is because then it becomes easy to surrender. Brahmin life is not a life of wearing white clothes, it is living a life of victory, a life that is led by God Himself.

I cannot improve upon God’s love; it is the highest, most perfect love. Let me dare to discover what He would do in my life if I gave Him full charge. No more of: “I am doing my best Baba”, “I am still an effort maker Baba…I will get there eventually..” or “Baba, I know you understand…”. Yes, He understands…He understands all that I’m missing out on by taking things easy, by taking Him for granted, by going on living life on my own terms. When I breathe my last breath, only one thing will matter: my relationship with God. If I shared a deep intimate bond with Him over a long period of time, then at that last moment, only He will be on my mind. I would be so full of His pure selfless love, so overcome with gratitude for completely transforming me from a degraded human into an elevated deity, so full of my own goodness that I would be spending my every moment basking in these experiences. So when that last moment comes, I am in His remembrance, naturally.

God has come especially for me. He is my Father always but visibly now. He also becomes my Teacher and Guide and serves tirelessly so that I can reach my full destiny. Let me surrender.