Baba says, “Have patience o mind. Your days of happiness are about to come.”

This is a journey, says Baba, and on a journey, one needs to keep moving forward. If I have come to a stop then it means that I have become tired. I have tried to get past a sanskar but it keeps roaring its head in new ways. Or when I think I’ve transformed in one area, it seems there are three more I haven’t transformed in. It’s as if I take one step forward and three steps back. I listen to the Murli every day and feel as if each teaching is for me! ‘Child, you have to be very sweet”- I hear that and I know that I have to become sweet…I lost my temper a bit yesterday. ‘Child, you have to be tolerant’- I hear that and seems that this too applies to me! I tend to lose my patience during those slow meetings at work. Sometimes, this whole transformation thing can feel so overwhelming, there are even thoughts of turning back.

Baba says, “Have patience o mind. Your days of happiness are about to come.”

To become tired means I no longer am able to see my destination clearly. I thought I was on my way to become Lakshmi-Narayan but when I see my sanskars, when it gets hard, when it’s taking too long, I no longer see that destination of being Lakshmi-Narayan clearly anymore. The seed of self-doubt gets sown: “what is going to happen?”, “Maybe I’m falling behind…”, “what if I can’t get past these sanskars and destruction happens?” Due to this my fast speed or intense effort become just ordinary effort. I lack courage to jump over the rock or obstruction on my path, I lose hope in myself and become disheartened. And what’s worse, even though I have the Father’s support, I feel myself all alone at such times.

Baba says, “You are My children.” That one statement carries so much weight. All that a child is responsible for is to hold the Father’s hand and follow His directions; the Father is responsible for the rest. He is the Purifier, not me. He is here for the purpose of purification, it is His specialization! The sanskars have been with me for 63 births, they don’t go away so quickly or easily. Baba is already doing the work in me, the change happens in small increments, not overnight. If I look at myself from day to day, it might seem as if nothing has changed but if I were to look at my whole journey or over the course of the past few years, I’d see how much has changed. No amount of my worrying will rush God! He works in His way, at His own pace. I need faith that He is the expert, that He knows what He’s doing and most importantly I need the faith that this expert is my Father. Then, no matter how big a sanskar might seem, I will always have the courage and patience to keep on moving forward.

“The children whose intellects have faith are patient.“, says Baba. When I become impatient, I worry and take matters into my own hands; I become the ‘purifier’. Then I become a hatha yogi, start to fight the sanskar and beat it down by force. For example, if I tend to get angry, I decide: “I will never get angry from today on” and then stop talking to people altogether in my effort to stop losing my temper. However, outward behavior modification doesn’t work; what I need is a heart transformation and only God, the Supreme Surgeon, can perform that surgery. So, have patience o mind….Rather than try to beat myself, shame myself or fall into the pits of guilt or regret when I am attacked by the sanskar, let me see what happened, learn and keep moving forward. To fall into the pits is to come to a stop and let Maya win.

 “Storms will come very forcefully. You mustn’t be afraid of it.“, the Father says as He gives me courage and patience. Only He can give me patience because only He knows the way and how far I am from my destination. He has already told me the beginning, middle and end of my story. When I spin this discus in my intellect, then I remain refreshed, I don’t become tired. I stay aware of who I really am, how I got to where I am and what I am becoming in the future. I have the faith that now is the most beneficial confluence age, that God my Father is here and that I will receive my inheritance of world sovereignty from Him as I have cycle after cycle. I have the firm faith that if I continue to be the child and follow shrimat, my days of happiness are now about to come. I have the faith that the Father is always with me and that when I show courage to keep moving, the Father gives a lot of help. This, is lasting patience, imperishable patience.