I am not alone

Baba says, ‘don’t make yourself alone‘. He comes at this Confluence Age to meet His long lost and now found children. He knows all that I’ve been through – the beginning, middle and end of my story. He knows how I fell prey to Ravan, how I lost my inheritance and more importantly, He knows how I can get it back.

He is my Father, Teacher and Guru. He is also my Best Friend and Beloved. This journey to claim my lost inheritance which is to say, the journey back home is not one I need to take alone. I have a Companion.

Sometimes, I can think that Baba’s job is to simply instruct and then sit back. Then it’s my job to follow the instructions and get the job done. So when He says, ‘only have good feelings toward everyone, no matter what’, I think His job ends there. Now He is watching whether I’m going to be able to do it or not. So when I interact with other souls or navigate my relationships, I feel the pressure to be on high alert. I don’t want to fumble, I am on assignment. So I very gingerly wade through life, afraid to speak, to do anything. That’s bhakti, it’s where I separate from God and make myself alone.

Well, that’s not how God works.

He is not here to judge me. He loves me more than I can ever imagine, unconditionally. He knows it’s hard to change a sanskar (habit) that’s been with me for half the cycle. He is here to help. So, no He is not sitting back and enjoying watching me fail. He is instead offering a thousand steps of help for every step that I put forward.

For example, how many times have we started out with the right intention that I will not let anyone’s behavior or words affect my stage, then someone says something and I am about to type that nasty email or say something back when somehow my email doesn’t work or that person gets a call and walks away or something….In those few minutes, I remember the point of knowledge, remember Baba and find my balance again.

Or what about the time, we said no to that offer or assignment but somehow it kept finding it’s way back to us. We then reluctantly did it only to find that it was the ticket to the next chapter in my life. It’s not just Baba, even the Drama cherishes me.

Baba is with me, working with me. He says, never make yourself alone. You are not…I am with you every step of the way. I simply need one step of courage – that one determined thought to do the right thing, that pure intention to serve and He gets the rest done. As my Guide, He offers me new tips and tricks everyday based on my progress, helps me identify places where I am weak, encourages me with each small victory.

Let me start every task, every meeting, every interaction, every chore with His remembrance. Let me KNOW that He is right there with me and approach everything with confidence, not fear. Let me KNOW that if I fumble, He’ll make it right. Let me KNOW that if something happens that seems like the wrong thing to me, it may not be. It was a necessary scene in the Drama, it’s teaching me something and will move me forward.

If this transformation was something I could accomplish alone then wouldn’t I have done it a long time ago? Why did God have to come at all? I KNOW this ain’t a one person gig, let me not make it one. I have a Partner.

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