I am the Bridegroom

Baba says, ‘All of you are brides and I am your Bridegroom. I come to decorate you. You also know that God is the Father.

It is only the Brahmins who say: We experienced God in the form of the Father; we experienced Him as the Mother, Friend, Beloved and the Bridegroom. Rishis, munis, saints and scholars all simply sing the praise: ‘You are the Father, Mother and Friend’ but they don’t experience God in those relationships. They are left hoping and longing for a glimpse: ‘He will come one day, we will meet Him one day…’ However, Brahmin souls say with intoxication, sparkle, faith and happiness from their heart: ‘I have found my Father’. There are those that are thirsty for a drop, for a glimpse and here I am celebrating a meeting with the Father all day, every day! Such is this most elevated confluence age, such is my most elevated fortune!

‘Is this intoxication constant? or does it come and go?’, asks Baba. If it is the latter, it might be useful to check my relationship with God.

When I am dating someone, I have my own freedom, my own will; I can do all that I want to, spend how much I want to on whatever I want to and whenever I want to, I can come and go as I please. But here’s what I don’t have: I don’t have the name, or a right to the property of the one I am dating. For that, I need to be married, I need to commit. The moment I say: ‘I do’, just like that, I have a new name, and I am an equal partner or owner of everything. What’s more, if I need help with anything, I have a right to ask and I know that I will get it. So it’s a trade-off: my old life of being and doing as I want in exchange for companionship, right to the name and ownership.

Baba says, ‘All of you are brides and I am your Bridegroom. I come to decorate you.Am I still dating God or am I married to Him? He is the Creator of Heaven, He comes bearing the gift of heaven on the palm of His hand. He is the Owner of the Treasure Store of all virtues, powers and attainments; in other words, He has everything I need to be eternally peaceful, happy and content. He is the only Faithful Companion; He promises to never leave me nor forsake me. He is committed to walking through any fire or braving any storm with me. ‘Simply hold My hand and I will take you across’, He promises.

If I were really truly experiencing such companionship, there is no way that I would be sorrowful or fearful; I would not shake nor wilt. But I do. I leave the Companion Who has come to decorate me with all the virtues and the eternal attainments and chase after limited things. I still live the old life and only remember God when I have an emergency; in other words, I’m just a date, not the one who has the authority to sign the name that is the name above all names, that holds within it all power. ‘Ask your heart’, says Baba, ‘how much do I stay on the pilgrimage of remembrance? Because you fail in remembrance, you don’t have that stage or that happiness all the time. You children should keep practicing this subject more.‘ 

‘Ask yourself’, He says, ‘am I constantly wed? A bride never becomes separated for even one breath or moment.’ The words in the mind of a bride are: ‘We will constantly stay together, live together and die together.’ The face and image of the Bridegroom is constantly merged in the eyes and lips of the bride. I only hear His words through my ears. On the path of devotion, they have the practice of constantly hearing soundless words (un-had shabd), and if they hear this sound even once after making a lot of effort, they consider their devotion to have been worthwhile. ‘This is a memorial of this time‘, explains Baba. When I have wed, I only hear the eternal great mantra ‘Manmanabhav’ echoing in my ears. I constantly experience the Father repeating these words again and again and bringing back this awareness. While walking and moving around, I constantly hear these imperishable words personally from the Father and don’t hear the words of other souls even while hearing them. When I am constantly wed, I have the stage of ‘I speak to You, I listen to You, I only speak that which You have related’. I don’t as much as bring another soul into my awareness or in my thoughts even for a second. In other words, I am not subservient to anyone even in thoughts. I constantly wear the ‘suhaag‘ or the awareness of belonging to the One Father and none other.

Only when the suhaag is constant, will my fortune be constant. And what a great fortune it is! I become Narayan, the most elevated human-being, from an ordinary human. ‘You should have so much intoxication’, says Baba. People go in front of Shiva and ask for their aprons to be filled. Here, He comes to where you are and decorates you with all the imperishable jewels of knowledge and makes you into the masters of the land of Vishnu. He takes me from the land of sorrow that I was in a moment ago into the land of happiness. All it takes is to commit and say: ‘I do’, from my heart. There, the bride places her steps in the footsteps of the bridegroom physically, but here I place my footsteps in the footsteps of thought. Whatever the Father’s thought, it is also my thought. I don’t want to place even a single step out of place; nowhere but in the Father’s steps.

I am the child of God!, He isn’t just God to me anymore, He is my true, eternal Father. He has adopted me and made me His child and willed me everything He has. Whether I claim it all depends on whether I have accepted my new identity. If I believe myself to be God’s child, I also believe that His nature is now within me. It doesn’t matter how I was before, I now have a new nature by virtue to being born into God’s family. On the path of devotion, it is said: ‘Whatever I have is Yours; nothing is mine.’ ‘But’, says Baba, ‘the correct thing to say is: ‘Whatever is Yours is mine.’ ‘ Whatever is the Father’s thought is my thought. ‘In your daily life, in doing service, the Father’s nature and sanskars are yours.’ When I have this awareness, any limited mine will merge and the unlimited fortune from the Father becomes mine; that is, everything Yours will become mine.

Children say: Baba, take us away from this world of sin.. This means that they are asking for death.‘ But this is a sweet death. By dying from the old world, I choose life; a life with the eternal Beloved, the Bridegroom Who brings for me the gift of heaven on earth.

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