Baba says, ‘Spin the discus of self-realization.’
No human-being can stay even for a moment without having thoughts but what kind of thoughts is up to me. In the past, I used to believe that I had to go along with whatever thoughts fell into my head but then the Father came and reminded me that I am the creator of my thoughts; I am not at the mercy of my thoughts, I am the maker of my thoughts. So what am I spinning in my mind? Is the spinning taking me into an ascending stage or is it negative or wasteful spinning that gives me a headache? I did the latter for half a cycle already and so am experienced with carrying the burden of waste. Baba says, ‘now is the time to drop all that burden and become double-light. Become a spinner of the discus of self-realization.’
Those who are spinners of the discus of self-realization remain under the Father’s canopy of protection now as well as under the royal canopy in the future kingdom, says Baba. And the spinning has to be constant; it cannot be that I spin the discus of self-realization for 5 mins in the morning and then go in reverse and spin the discus of wasteful thinking for the rest of the day. That does not get me under the canopy. When I am spinner of the discus of self-realization all the time, then I will remain under the canopy all the time. I will have an authority over Maya, that is, she cannot deceive me and take me down the rabbit hole of waste. I will claim a right to the Father’s unlimited inheritance of peace, happiness, and contentment.
When I am spinner of the discus of self-realization, Baba says, I will be visible as one who has a canopy of light. This is the symbol of the discus- the discus (halo) of light. ‘Those who have such a discus‘, Baba explains, ‘will be constantly free from the various types of spinning of Maya‘. This includes the spinning of wasteful thoughts of the awareness of my own body, from the spinning of the lokik and alokik relations, free from the spinning of the nature and sanskars of their many births and free from the spinning of the attractions of matter and the elements. Apart from the spinning of the discus of self-realization, there will be no other type of spinning. On the contrary, through the powers I have received from the Father, I will free other souls from the many different types of spinning.
But when I am a spinner of the discus of Maya, then the symbol of this discus will be the burden on my head. When I am a spinner of the discus of self-realization, I will have a crown of light and a right to the Father’s inheritance; when I am spinner of the discus of Maya, I have not a crown, but a burden of many types of obstacles. I constantly experience this weight on my head, that is, in my intellect. ‘Such souls‘, Baba explains, ‘will constantly be in debt and ill.’ My face and forehead will constantly have a question mark. I would constantly be asking, ‘why? what?, how?’ in every aspect. Of the self, I will ask: ‘Will I be able to become an embodiment of success? in my interactions with others, will I become close to them? will I be able to adjust to the nature and sanskars of others? will I be able to make others content?’ Not only will I have questions of myself, but I will also have questions about others: ‘why is she behaving like this with me?, why am I not receiving co-operation? why am I not mentioned or given regard?’
I will also have questions of the Father: ‘Since Baba is Almighty, why is He not changing my intellect? why is the One who is able to take others beyond with just a glace not even looking at me!?, Since He is the Father, and if He accepts me as I am, what I am, then it is His responsibility to take me across! And since He is the Bestower, why is He not giving me what I want? He is Trikaldarshi; He knows my past, present and future; so why is He not enabling me to claim a high status through His powers?’ I make these complaints or questions to the Father! On the one hand, I have the burden of many births, and on the other hand, because of being a child of the Father, and not fulfilling the duty of giving the return of receiving all rights from the Father, I incur a debt. The burden of debt makes all the weakness within the soul take on the form of an illness.
Due to all this burden, my intellect would not be able to become stable for even one second, that is, I would not be able to apply a full-stop. In my thoughts and deeds, I won’t be able to let the past be the past and apply a full-stop and have the awareness of ‘nothing new‘, nor would I have the awareness that whatever happens is beneficial. I wouldn’t be able to apply such a full-stop. ‘So‘, explains Baba, ‘to ask many questions, either of the self, or of others or of the Father is a sign that the soul is not a spinner of the discus of self-realization and so the soul cannot remain under the canopy.‘
I am either a spinner of the discus of self-realization or I am carrying a burden. If I am carrying a burden, I cannot become double-light. This is why I then keep saying that I don’t experience anything. I continue to listen to everything and I continue to move along, but I cannot see the destination, that is, I have no attainment. Baba says, ‘When you maintain courage, the Father gives help.‘ This is the method. ‘Therefore‘, He says, ‘continue to move along, don’t stop. Become victorious as you did a cycle ago. When you remember the Father for just a second with an honest heart and in all relationships, then the experience of the meeting and the attainment of one second will repeatedly take you away from all things and draw you close to the Father. No matter how weak you may be currently, you still made the effort to remember the Father for even just a second. In return, the Father helps a thousand-fold. This is the guarantee.‘ Even though there may be effort initially, let me continue to spin the discus of self-realization; the more I spin this discus, the sooner the weakness leaves and the healthier I become.
By getting trapped in all the different types of spinning, I lost everything and, by becoming a spinner of the discus of self-realization, I found the Father, I found everything. ‘So, always be a spinner of the discus of self-realization‘, says Baba, ‘be a conqueror of Maya and continue to move forward.‘