Baba says, ‘you write: You are the Ocean of Knowledge and the Ocean of Bliss, but you also have to write the ‘Ocean of Love’.’
There is infinite praise of the Father; but perhaps His most important praise is that He is the Ocean of Love. This spiritual love, God’s love, is true, altruistic love. This love is the ONLY alchemy that makes the hearts of souls loving for the whole cycle. This love is the very breath, the very foundation of Brahmin life. If I don’t have the experience of this spiritual love, then I don’t have the true bliss of Brahmin life. God’s love is the magnet to transform any soul no matter how impure he is. It is the easy instrument for transformation. Love is the basis of giving me a right and making me experience spiritual intoxication. Where there is love, Brahmin life is entertaining. If there isn’t love, Brahmin life is dry; it is a life of effort.
God’s love is love from the heart. Worldly love breaks my heart into pieces because it gets distributed. I have to fulfil the responsibility of love to many. God’s love brings together the many broken pieces of the heart. By loving the one Father, I automatically become co-operative with everyone because the Father is the Seed. When a seed is watered, every leaf automatically receives water; there is no need to water every leaf. Love makes every task easy, that is, it frees me from laboring. Where there is love, I have automatic and easy remembrance of the One; it is difficult to forget someone I love, not difficult to remember.
God is the Ocean of Knowledge and He gives me the knowledge of the Creator and the whole of the creation. But even if I have this knowledge but no love in the heart, then that is dry knowledge. No matter how much knowledge I have, how much understanding I have in my intellect, accurate knowledge means knowledge filled with love. Those who are just knowledgeable, Baba explains, remember with their head, whereas those who are loving remember with their hearts. Those who remember with their head have to work hard at their remembrance, dharna and service. I eat the fruit of hard work whereas others eat the fruit of love. Where there isn’t love but just intellectual knowledge, then, despite the knowledge, the intellect will keep battling with ‘Why?’, ‘What?’ and ‘How?’. There will be more waste thoughts. Where there is love, on the other hand, there is no battle, instead, I am absorbed in love; I am merged. Just as moths in their love for the flame don’t ask questions of ‘Why?’ or ‘What?’, but simply sacrifice themselves, in the same way, when I am loving to God, I remain merged in love.
Sometimes, I find myself complaining to the Father: ‘Baba, I have become a Brahmin, I know about the soul, about You with Your full introduction, I am aware of all the relationships, I have the knowledge of the cycle, the Creator and the creation and yet: why isn’t remembrance easy? why don’t I have the constant experience of bliss, power and peace? why isn’t remembrance constant? why do I repeatedly forget to remember despite my effort?’ The reason for this, Baba explains, is that there is knowledge only in the head. There is knowledge, but there is little love in the heart. I have intellectual love: ‘I am the child, He is the Father, the Bestower.’, I have this intellectual knowledge. However, when this knowledge becomes merged in the heart, then knowledge and love become combined. ‘Knowledge is the seed and the water is love’, explains Baba, ‘both are needed. If the seed is not watered, it won’t bear fruit, that is, there will be no attainment.’ This is why I find remembrance hard work. Love means to be simply merged in the ocean of all attainments and experiences.
Even in worldly life, even a small gift of love gives me the experience of so much attainment but if the exchange is based on selfishness, then even if the gift is of a million, there is no contentment from it and I would continue to find some shortcoming or the other in it: ‘There should be this, that should have been done..’ Exchange of a million doesn’t enable me to experience as much happiness as one tiny thing given with love from the heart does. ‘This is because love of the heart also settles karmic accounts‘, teaches Baba. This is how special of an experience love is! ‘So check’, says Baba, ‘along with knowledge, do I also have love in my heart? or is there is a leakage?’
A leakage occurs when there is either the slightest love for something or someone other than the Father, even in my thoughts or when there is the slightest jealousy or dislike for someone. In either case, there is subservience to someone or something else; these are karmic accounts. My intellect keeps getting pulled by those accounts despite not wishing for it to be. Because of this battling, my power doesn’t increase and because I am not powerful, I find it takes effort to remember the Father. Then, because of having to labor, I am not content. Where there isn’t contentment, one minute I will be intoxicated with the experience of remembrance and the next minute, I will be disheartened. And so I am sometimes a yogi and sometimes, separated from yoga. Then, I call out to the Father: ‘Baba, I am generally good but there is just this one thing that is holding me back that You should finish.’ The Father says: ‘Children, I only have one method to purify you: forget all your bodily relations including your bodies. You have been ordered to remember the Father.’ Yes, Karankaravanhaar Baba is bound to help me settle my accounts but the settling has to be done by me.
‘So’, says Baba, ‘don’t just be dry and knowledgeable, don’t just be intellectually knowledge-full. Be knowledgeable and loving in your heart and check for any leakage.‘